This i believe is the verbiage the haunts my conscious to this day, and I admit, it does come up. Ah come on, just for the next hour or whatever, maybe there isn't a "god" and I am worrying about this way way too much? I should just go through with it. Than I start to tell myself.. but what if I am wrong?

And what if there is not a God, but you lived your life as a good Christian. Did you waste you life? Did you say no to those times when it would have been so much fun to sin, to hurt those around you, whether you realized it or not.
My answer is no. If I lived my life, living out the Christian life, and I died, to find out, I was, and the whole church was wrong.. Than fine, I still lived my life happy. But if I didn't live the life I was told by from the Word of God, I just decided to say, I choose not to believe in a God, because a lot of people say the same thing, and I feel I should hold myself only accountable, and no one else, and God is just a Gap to which science cannot explain and that.. well heck, I only live just once, I need to enjoy it, even if its considering a sinning, than I died.. to find out, all of it was true. What than shall I do?
Nothing, because it's game over, I was given the opportunity everyday to confess and repent(John 20:21–23) to God (1 John 1:9), but I chose sin, now Sin has won, and the damnation of my soul is my own doing. Game over, Satan has won, he has also made a place for me in hell, Just as my Lord has made a place for me in heaven, except, I gave that up, with my ignorance, and lack of faith.
Today, is not my last day, but tomorrow might be, where am I with God, where do I stand? God has always kept that door open for us, to change our ways, to avoid the place of eternal damnation with Satan. God has prepared a place for us, but remember so has satan. Both are cheering for you. God wants to see you win, and keep your eternal life forever with the himself and the saints in heaven, but Satan is also cheering for you as well. He would like to see you lose your life, and enter his eternal damnation of fire. He also has place ready for you.
The game is still on, you are still in this, Take hold of your life, give faith to your Lord and Savior, and the next time someone tells you.. "You only live once", you can say, Your right, and I will follow my Lord, and keep my place in heaven, with my Lord
Thank you.